my heart

Photo taken by contributor Carrie Hilgert, a photographer and portrait artist in her thirties from Northeast Kansas who was recently diagnosed with bipolar disorder. After venturing into digital photography, she became interested in documenting her life with self portraits. This became particularly helpful when her life started to fall apart due to depression. All her other creative outlets left her, but she could always process her very dark feelings with self portraits. While she is doing much better now, she maintains compassion for those going through these hard things and hopes that her photography can give an honest insight into something that makes most people feel very isolated and alone.

About this photo:

“This photo is titled ‘Can You Feel the Beat of My Heart Beat Through Me?’ This is from a series on fear and uncertainty. Fear seems to be a recurring theme in my life, no matter how hard I fight it. Fear of abandonment, of not being noticed, of my mental illness consuming me, of what people will think if they see the real me, of losing my creativity and worst, of getting to the end of my life without having let all of the wonderful things inside me come out. This shot is about that heartbeat that is crying to come out. The passion that is breaking through the shell I built for most of my life..”

Find more from Carrie at her blog or flickr.

My Heart.

to love and be loved

I couldn’t resist a further post.

This is just an amazing, AMAZING, blog that I’ve just discovered!

Carrie Hilgert’s photos are unbelievably breath-taking and so are her words. And her title of her particular post, ‘to love and be loved’, leads me nicely into my theme for next month, February.

I hope to write about things to do with relationships (not just the romantic sort), connection, the heart and….. heart littleLOVE heart little … watch this space!

In the meantime enjoy Carrie’s blog:
to love and be loved.






I would like to share with you a series of photographs entitled PEACE which I received this morning, from blog I follow, called Broken Light.

Broken Light is a community of photographers living with or affected by mental illness and who support each other through photographs.

It’s an excellent blog and I highly recommend it.

Their link is:

“This series of photographs is called ‘PEACE.’ It was taken at the Buffalo and Erie County Botanical Gardens, where these flowers and general atmosphere promote peace and a sense of wellbeing. It is so very peaceful to be there, floral beauty all around you, and the fragrances of the flowers and even a waterfall. The air itself smells like PEACE! It meant so much for me to visit there and get my bearings when I wasn’t feeling well.

Samina, a Molecular Biologist who has an MSEd in School Counseling. She is also a wife and a mother. She was diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder Type 1 in 1985. Since then, she has fought and survived this disease with the help of medication, good psychiatrists, exercise, music, and love for and from her family and friends.

Samina’s blog can be found here: