Hey Heidi Spitzig, thank you for the nomination! I am honoured… 🙂 Like you, I had to do a quick google to find out what the Liebster Blog Award was all about! Anyway, here are my answers in response to the questions you had asked:
1. What made you decide to start blogging?
I don’t know really. I think blogging decided to start with me. We met on 22 December 2014 and so far it’s been going OK, so we shall see.
2. Have you ever had a moment where you felt connected to something greater than yourself? What did that moment entail?
Oh yes. No doubt about this one. There were two moments actually. OK maybe three. The first was when I was away on holiday in the lovely Lake District. I asked that we stop at Kirkstone Pass as I had to get out of the car. I just had this unexplainable urge to be outdoors in this beauty of a place. If you’ve been to the Lake District you will know what I mean. This place had a field of wildflowers and overgrown grass. There were cliffs nearby with sheep grazing. But it was wildflowers and the gentle, wind that slowed everything down for me. Time had no meaning, and I felt so connected to where I was, I never felt like that before. It felt like Home. Like I belonged. Like I had been away for so long and only now, returned. I had missed it but now I was Home. I felt so emotional. I never understood tears of joy before but I did then. I didn’t cry but there was a huge lump in my throat and a feeling like my lungs were going to explode with all that I felt within. I felt my heart roar and all that made me, me, was vibrating powerfully. I’ve never felt so alive. I could have laid there in the grass with the wildflowers and the vast sky above me. I could have laid there on my own and not felt alone or lonely. Because in that moment everything in my world was OK, I was OK, I was more than OK, I was at peace and ache-free. The second time was when I had a dream of my many younger selves, meeting all of them from age 3 to my then current self of 32. Now that was spectacular. Imagine saying hello to your little selves and calling them by your name! I won’t forget it. The third time was when I was ill with a severe chest infection and on antibiotics. I had a dream that night where I left my body. I felt myself shuttling through space at a speed of 1000 mph, I thought I’d wet myself but thankfully I didn’t! I remember travelling to this place, meeting someone and having the most honest dialogue ever. In that dream I was given the opportunity to ask about anything I wanted clarity on, but I didn’t. I didn’t, because when I was in the dream state, I had all the answers, and even not –knowing was OK. It was like what will be will and what I will need to know will be known. Forgive me the clichés, but these ones were true for me at that time. I felt like what is truly mine can never be lost and therefore I didn’t need to worry nor feel I needed to control the outcome. Of course when I awoke a few hours later I could have kicked myself! I wished I had asked some questions! But the feeling I was left with stays with me till today. The feeling of knowing that Life is in the Right, that Life is always in the right and we/I/you etc., none of us need to worry. Oh, and I was shuttling and traveling from my body, I remember seeing myself lying asleep on my bed as I was. Asleep oblivious to what was happening. That I had left my shell. That was surreal! I have always believed that I’m not my body but that state of being confirmed it. I now know I’m much more.
3. What is the number one item on your bucket list?
To ride a wild, strong, black horse, across the shore of a breath-taking beach and a vast shoreline that is met with crashing waves. To ride FAST. To ride WILD. To ride FAR and beyond.
4. Who is the person who has influenced you the most?
I can’t limit it to just the one as there have been many over the years, singers like Lauryn Hill, poets like Nayyirah Waheed, Rilke and Walcott, authors like Rohinton Mistry, friends who touch my soul and who say the things I need to hear at times. I find that I constantly meet or come across people/groups/individuals whom I need to be influenced by. The blog world is one fine example of this. When the student is ready and all that.
5. What is your favourite story to tell?
My many selves. The dream I had. That’s my favourite story ever!
Now is my turn to nominate! **rubs hands in glee** drum roll please……
The following are my nominees for this Award:
I’ll stick with seven as I like the number 7! I am choosing to ignore the amount of followers you should have as I think that’s irrelevant. I am nominating you because you write with an honesty, an openness and a freshness that makes sense and rings true for me. I am nominating you because you have in many ways said something that’s made me go hmmmmmm, I like that or yes, that makes sense. You may not realise this but your words have lifted me in my moments of despair or shed some light in some dark corner of my life; each and every one of you have made an impact on my life so I now reward you with this nomination! 🙂 I’m too kind I know.
My questions for you are as follows:
1) We write mainly for ourselves but we also write for an audience so my question is who do you write your blog for i.e. who are you speaking to when you write and why?
2) How well have you loved?
3) A song or story that speaks to you and the reasons why?
4) The last time you did something kind was?
5) How would you like to be remembered?
Of course you are under no obligation to answer even one of the questions but if you wanted to play, well then do….