How far have you walked for men who’ve never held your feet in their laps? How often have you bartered with bone, only to sell yourself short? Why do you find the unavailable so alluring? Where did it begin? What went wrong? And who made you feel so worthless? If they wanted you, wouldn’t they have chosen you? All this time, you were begging for love silently, thinking they couldn’t hear you, but they smelt it on you, you must have known that they could taste the desperate on your skin? And what about the others that would do anything for you, why did you make them love you until you could not stand it? How are you both of these women, both flighty and needful? Where did you learn this, to want what does not want you? Where did you learn this, to leave those that want to stay?
something to tell 
I learned this in my childhood. The men in my family were unavailable to me emotionally so I learned to be drawn to men who were unavailable. I was familiar with not being seen, heard, or made to feel like I mattered. I did not know what to do with a man who saw me and wanted to be there for me…he was an alien and I could not relate.
Good questions to ask. I know my answers only because I’ve been on a soul healing,evolving journey for a few years. Bless you for bringing this to the surface. ❤
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Thank you Brenda for being so open and honest. I can relate to your experience. A painful one no doubt. Could I ask, please, if things did change that the unavailable became available and you were able to see it and accept it?
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This absolutely spoke to me, I have reblogged it on my learning to live like water page. Thank you for putting it into words.
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Thank you kindly 😃
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